Why Is It So Hard To Let Go?

By Lily Shawhan

I did the best I could to be a good mother to my one and only son.  Nonetheless, I made mistakes along the way, just as other mothers do. I am not unique in this position, but I do find myself overly worried about my child because I overprotected him too much.  He is out on his own in the world, finding his way through life as a recent high school graduate with a job. I am learning to practice mindfulness to help me deal with my anxiety and fears about something bad happening to him.  I have been participating in Bible studies for over a year now, and it has slowly helped to let go of my guilt of making inadequate decisions, in my opinion, to prepare him for living in the real world on his own.

Let me share a reading from the King James Version – Philippians 4: 6-7

“Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.  And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shalI keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”

I am yet a work in progress, trying not to beat myself up for the decisions I made as a mom. I have to stop living in the past regretting things that have already happened and living in the future while worrying about what might or might not happen. I am now learning to live in the present and learning to trust God and myself to live with the peace of Jesus Christ’s love for me and my son as his children. 

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