By: Antwone O’Quinn
I don’t know about you, but sometimes I’m guilty of trying to work my way into right standing with God. In my mind I know that I have been saved by faith and not by works, however, my heart tells me, “yeah, but to continue to be saved you must perform and if you don’t, your salvation is in jeopardy.” Once I’ve convinced myself that my salvation is secure, I struggle with God loving me more or less based on my performance. When I feel like I’m making my Father proud, I feel more loved, accepted, seen, and heard by God. During these times it feels God’s presence is palpable. However, when I fall off the spiritual wagon, due to a series of bad decisions, I feel underserving of God’s love. This is generally when I begin to reap the harvest of what I have sown. I know God is omnipresent, but His manifest presence is beyond my senses. I don’t truly believe my prayers are heard, so in serious matters I will solicit others to pray on my behalf. These dualling perspectives creates internal disharmony and a bipolar spiritual existence. (Please read Romans 4:1-4;13-17 before reading further.)
Clearly, God’s promise to give the whole earth to Abraham and his descendants was based not on his obedience to God’s law, but on a right relationship with God that comes by faith. If this is so clearly expressed in scripture, why do we have such a difficult time taking God at his word? It is a chance, we are such a diverse group, each of us would provide a different reason. Because we are different our choice of reason. However, the source of our choice would be from our fallen minds, the world, the enemy of our soul or a combination of the three. The cure for this manic condition is belief. Believe Him when He said Christ has died for our past, present, and future sins. Believe the God that raised the dead to life and created something out of nothing will leave the 99 to come for you. Be defined by your faith and not your failures. We are sons and daughters of God, whom he loves more than you love your sons and daughters. Belief is the distance between faith and fear! Believe the one who gave his only begotten son for you when you were an enemy. Believe the truth and not a lie. God is our father who promised to protect, provide, and to never leave or forsake us. Believe that each failure when given to God creates intimacy not distance; however, the inverse is also true. All depends on what you believe, so believe God.